So Much to Say

Daddy Daughter Dance 2014

Tomorrow morning E will be having surgery to hopefully improve her voice and give her better volume.  In January she was "officially" diagnosed with a paralyzed left vocal cord; a result of pda ligation surgery done when she was 12 days old.  At the time of her pda ligation, we were told there was a 20% chance that her vocal cord could be paralyzed.  We have since learned that with micropreemies (babies less than 2 pounds) this chance is actually much higher (perhaps as high as 67%).

E has always had a very quiet voice.  As a baby, when she would scream until her face would turn red and tears would flow, but no sound would come out except for some squeaks and hisses.  We have always suspected that her cord might be paralyzed, but we had so many other things on our plate that her quiet voice was not a top priority.

Now that E is older, the impact of not being able to speak up is becoming more apparent.  At home or in quiet settings when we are in the same room we can hear her.  It is tricky in situations where there is a lot of background noise, like in the car, restaurants, pool, as well as when she is across the house or in another room.  Sometimes we really struggle to hear what she is saying and she has to repeat herself a LOT.  It is also a struggle in social situations at school and in the classroom.  E is very social and makes every effort to participate in conversation, but she often has a hard time hearing what everyone is saying (because of only one cochlear implant), and they cannot hear her when she responds.  Kids are busy, and many times they do not take the time to listen closely or wait for her to repeat herself.  This has become more isolating over the years and she tends to gravitate now to conversations with adults who will make more of an effort to hear her (and make sure she hears them).

We initially learned of the reinnervation surgery from our friend Abby in Philadelphia.  Her daughter Hallie also had a paralyzed cord from pda ligation, and they were lucky to be near a voice clinic and one of the doctors who specializes in this field.  Hallie had the surgery over a year ago and they shared their good success with us. Abby was kind enough to talk to Hallie's doctor and surgeon about E, and she referred us to someone local who could help us.

Dr. Brown at the University of Michigan hospital did a scope of E's larynx in January and confirmed the diagnosis.  He was very optimistic about us pursuing the surgery for E and expressed that he feels that there is good hope for a positive outcome.  Hallie's doctor in Philly, Dr. Karen Zur stressed that this surgery should be performed within 7 years of injury, and E is 9 1/2.  This was not mentioned by our doctor in Michigan, but I feel glad to have the knowledge so I can have realistic expectations.

The reinnervation surgery will not "fix" E's vocal cord or make it move again, but over time it should help give it some additional bulk and tone, and prevent it from further atrophy so that E can get better vocal cord closure and more volume from her voice.  The reinnervation will take 6 months to a year to get full benefit, so at the same time E is having a vocal cord bulking procedure done which should give her some immediate results.  (Coincidently, another micropreemie friend K is having the same reinnervation surgery the day after us in Utah.  E and K had a fun Skype session this past weekend to hear each other's voices and chat about their upcoming surgeries (among other 8 and 9 year old topics of conversation:).

Once E has had a chance to recover from this surgery, we also have plans in the works for her second cochlear implant surgery on April 21st.  I just got confirmation on the date today, and am very happy to have worked it out on the first day of spring break so E won't have to miss any more school!  E's quiet voice is but one piece of the puzzle.  She also has a very hard time hearing other people in situations where there is a lot of background noise, like at school.  She has to concentrate so hard to filter out voices from background noise, and it really impacts how much she is able to catch from conversations going on around her. We have done a lot of research put a great deal of thought into this, before deciding that we need to pursue this option to help E hear optimally so she isn't missing so much.

It is really, really stressful on J and I (and E of course) to go through all of this after so long without any surgeries or hospitalizations.  We are feeling very apprehensive, rusty, and out of practice.  I would love to keep my kids safe in our bubble and never worry about any of this again, but life moves on doesn't it?  We are really, really hopeful that doing these surgeries will improve E's quality of life by making communication easier for her in the long run, particularly in light of the other challenges she faces.  E is very social and wants her voice to be heard.

She has so much to say.

Daddy Daughter Dance 2014

Daddy Daughter Dance 2014